Trigger Warning: mention of suicidal ideation/action
Since September is Suicide Prevention Awareness Month, I want to share an element
of my experience/story, as it relates to the theme of Deep Listening.
Benny, my orange and brown striped tabby cat, is by every definition a deep listener. I
was just writing out emails related to my job training program and talking to myself
about my dreams and aspirations, and he was just laying there looking at me with intent
green eyes. He always listens to what I have to say. Yes, I do talk to him like he
understands me. I think cats (and dogs and other creatures who live their lives with us)
do truly read our emotions and respond accordingly. Anyone who has such creatures in
their homes knows what I am talking about.
There was one very important moment during the pandemic when Benny listened intently to my pain, somehow just knowing I needed to hear from him. Out of deep despair and loneliness like I have never experienced before, I was preparing to end my life when Benny let out a loud cry like he was saying, “stop Mama!” That meow shook me to my core, and I realized that although I was isolated from my fellow humans at that moment, this cat needed me to stay. I am so glad I did. In that moment, I learned that not only am I important, valuable and worthy, I am also needed and wanted. For a while, Benny was the only living being I had to hold, pet and touch. He truly saved my life. My fellow humans also reminded me
that Benny needs me. I am forever grateful for that circle of support.
~Jen Garrison
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