Songs are emotions to me. Most of the time, I sing and smile and I feel good listening to my favorite songs. There are songs that make my life stop for a moment because of the sadness in my soul.
I want to share with you three songs that bring me to tears. The songs are beautiful. But, it’s not easy for me to listen to them.
The first song is “You Don’t Know How it Feels” by Tom Petty. I had bloodwork at my oncologist and I was driving home. I had a chemo treatment the week before and I… Well, I don’t have the words to say how I felt. I will just say that I felt bad. That song came on the radio when I was feeling vulnerable mentally and physically. I started crying because people didn’t know how it feels to be me. It still brings me to tears when I think of that moment.
The second song is “Landslide” by Fleetwood Mac. It reminds me that I’m getting old and that my children are getting older. I especially think of my son because he is so far away from me. This song reminds me that life is always changing and it’s difficult to deal with sometimes.
The last song is “Lightning Crashes” by Live. This song is the worst for me. It brings on PTSD attacks for me. The last time I heard it. I started crying and shaking. I started to relive all of my breast cancer treatments. I can tell you that it is a mental state that is scary. I will never and I mean never ever listen to that song again.
These songs bring feelings and memories I wish I could bury. They have shown me that songs can make me feel vulnerable. Yes, for me songs are emotions.